Of the 515 people whose attempt was interrupted, only 35 later died by suicide in the years to come. Its complicated, Bay Area city cracks top 10 best for sleep: US News, JV talked about health struggles before disappearance, Martinez residents warned not to eat food grown in, Do Not Sell or Share My Personal Information. Once her gap year was over, she moved back to California decided to attend U.C. I hope he is seeing a psychiatrist for his medications, not a PCP, because psychiatrists are much more well versed in the benefits, risks, side effects, etc. They understand the battle with weight loss and a zillion other things but not suicide. Despite having to raise two young children alone with barely a cent to her name, Lorraine refused many offers from news agencies to sell the film of her husbands demise. He traveled from L.A. to San Francisco days before the jump to prepare, and holed up in the Grand Southern Hotel on Mission Street with his cameraman to wait for a clear day so the footage would look beautiful when it was watched on news channels from coast to coast. There are far more narcissistic dads and men than there are women and mothers. But, as you said, the problem is also bigger than a question of means. Which will turn into the vicious cycle of no job= no money, and no money = no job. We will never recover from it. "There were many people in that vicinity during that time," said Mr. West. I lost my boyfriend to suicide two years ago and I have not been able to forgive myself. Sydney Kaitlyn West, 19, was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge around 6:45 a.m. on September 30, 2020. As well, though, I believe I may have accidentally given myself something like ECT. Thats why I searched for answers and I found this site. 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He recovered physically, but mentally he is now depressed and on anti-depressants,has anxiety attacks, is too emotional for working, and keeps saying he wishes he had succeeded with his attempt as he feels a burden to everyone. What happens to them afterward? Notify me of follow-up comments by email. Many self harm injuries, stitches. I pretended to have an awakening and successfully faked a born-again quality joy that warded off the idiotic, feeble attempts of others to help me. I tried to commit suicide when I was 18. Another possibility is that the instinct to live kicks in once someone comes close to dying. She grew up in Pleasanton, CA and then moved to Chapel Hill, NC with her family during high school. Growing up Sydney was described as a sweet and goofy girl who wasnt afraid of being herself. Your pain matters. If you havent already joined a support group for other suicide loss survivors, that might help you; such groups are available in person and online. The sad thing is that, as I say in my letter, some of what your friend thinks and believes may actually be true, but his mind is probably also shutting him out of other truths that could balance out his pain. I blame myself 100% for her suicide. In the 1970s, a researcher named Richard Seiden wanted to find out what happened to 515 people who came to the Golden Gate Bridge to die within the previous 35 years, but who were stopped by California Highway Patrol officers. Sometimes, life just sucks and the pain of living is unbearable. In the midst of a struggle with mental illness, Hines got a running start . After the war, people were looking for entertainment in 1940's San Francisco, but TVs were not yet common in homes, public hangings were history and the 49ers hadnt joined the NFL yet. I have to attend Court for something I have not done, the pressures that as put on me is colossal, yetI still have to attend, I know I will collapse in court from the stress and also have a serious heart condition on medication for it. You might be helped by connecting with other people who have attempted suicide and can understand not only what can lead a person to do that, but also what comes after. It was in 1984. Learn how your comment data is processed. Its death toll has since been surpassed only by the Nanjing Yangtze River Bridge in China.. But in reality, he cant know what the future holds. The Oscars will air on ABC and can be streamed on ABC.com and the ABC app as well as Hulu + Live TV, YouTube TV, AT&T TV or FuboTV. Trackback URL If I make it, Ill have publicity and be on my way, Rhodes told a friend who later testified at the coroners inquest. Her parents,Jay and Kimberly West,said their daughter liked visiting that bridge and would go to nearby Crissy Field to exercise. More often than not, the crisis passes. I am not sure anybody really wants to die but I know many people, including myself, who are just sick and tired of living and want it to be over. It would be logical to assume that being prevented from jumping merely delayed their death. West was in the Bay Area to take summer classes at UC Berkeley; she was supposed to enter school in the fall, but due to a concussion she sustained and classes being held remotely, she opted to defer for another year but stayed in California with family friends. . West may have been wearing dark leggings, blue Vans shoes and a teal sweatshirt at the time of her disappearance. Anyone with information about Sydneys whereabouts is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek by texting or calling 925-705-8328. Sign promoting a 24/7 crisis text line on the Golden Gate Bridge. "I just want to reach out to all the folks that have been supporting us over the past almost month now, communicate that the support and the love that we get is just absolutely amazing," Wests dad, Jay West, said in the clip. According to San Francisco Police Department (SFPD) her family reported her missing two days after she was last seen on Oct 2, 2020. And for most of those whose lives were saved, life goes on for many more years to come. West's family urges anyone with information about the case is asked to contact Scott Dudek, their investigator, who can be reached at 925-705-8328. and our When I will be talking to him, also sure helps me to see I am suicide attempt survivor. Also, I've authored the books Helping the Suicidal Person: Tips and Techniques for Professionals and Loving Someone with Suicidal Thoughts: What Family, Friends, and Partners Can Say and Do. I wish you all the very best and I pray you each find a way to manage and control the thoughts of suicide. The West family has also upped its reward for her return to $25,000. I am literally living day by day and full of guilt, regret and anger. Although severe depression led him to jump off the bridge, Kevin Hines has stated: The very second I let go, I knew I had made a big mistake.. None of us can. There are some reports that Sydney may have suffered from depression. "No detail is too small," said her mother, Kimberly West. A good place to start is the Facebook group Live Through This. Tears ago, when my children were younger, I actually reached a point where I went beyond imagining the trauma and lifelong suffering, to my children; such was my pain. The suicide barrier on the Sydney Harbour Bridge simply rerouted jumpers to a cliff popularly known as The Gap. Thanks for sharing, Anne. That is no way to live, but that is the reality. Ive been hospitalized 4 times in the past 6 weeks, after my 9th suicide attempt. I meant it, and I almost succeeded. Thanks again. "We know that there was a lot of pedestrian, car and bicycle traffic on the Golden Gate Bridge the morning Sydney disappeared. Wishing you peace, I am both, not realizing this until reading today My dad ended his life by his own hands , when I was 9. Syd, Ive always loved you from the bottom of my heart, since the minute I saw your eyes open. This is certainly true for me: narcissistic mother and sister. In Mental Health circles there is a saying , that Sometimes suicide is inevitable. Peace be with you Steven. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. 2023 Audacy, Inc. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. You definitely are not alone, and it does often feel good to be honest about suicidal thoughts to speak what many people consider to be the unspeakable. It may feel 100% true to him. But then they are stopped from jumping. You also can find other places to get help by phone, email, chat, or text at http://www.SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources/#immediatehelp. what can I do. Look at life this way Instead of allowing a human being to be a target almost like a bomb dropping on ringed target Simply flip the idea of all the violence and fear over..Draw a Large Heart then several hearts within Make a plan for dreams and plans Stick to it .. The Golden Gate Bridge came to be recognized as a symbol of the power and progress of the United States, and it set a precedent for suspension-bridge design around the world. I hope you believe your words here, or at least are beginning to. Dear Anthony, [feb.6.2019 @9.26am]. It's not hard to kill yourself at the Golden Gate bridge. (felt good to be honest for once). She was last seen September 30, 2020, from the San Francisco area near the Golden Gate Bridge specifically around Crissy field. Somehow I survived. Theres people who love you and want you to keep pushing even if your soul reason is living to not put them through that heartache. Have you read Whats In the Way Is the Way by Mary OMalley? West returned to the Bay Area as a University of California, Berkeley student, where she studied until recently, San Francisco police said when she was first reported missing. Maybe some of the posts on this site could be helpful to him? "Together we will find Sydney and bring her home," her mother said. They lied about every imaginable factor of surviving in life. Comments RSS Feed, My name is Denis and I live in England I am still recovering at the moment on 22nd of April 2020 I attempted to end my life I jumped off a 5 story carpark and survived I broke my left leg in 3 places and my right ankle in 6 places and my back in 2 places but I am lucky because I am recovering well and I can walk .people say its a mircle but I feel gulty because no one knew about the thoughts I was having for years because I did not tell any one to the outside world I was the life and soul of the party .I feel ashamed that now every one is worried about me and that is not what I wanted. Even so, bridge foreman Arthur Olson caught up with the stuntman as the crowd gathered, and grabbed him, but lost his grip, only succeeding in ripping free one of the harnesses. She was last seen in the area around 6:45 a.m. I fully expected to talk to her the next day, Jay West told KRON4. Theres just a lack of evidence that shes not with us anyone, Jay West said. He published the results in an article titled Where Are They Now? I still think about suicide, although not as often. BERKELEY, CA The parents of Sydney "Syd" West, a missing person who was previously a University of California, Berkeley student, have divulged new details in her case and are asking anyone with information to come forward. For me, the will to live kicked in. By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. You cant will people to live. It is true that suicide sometimes defies even the best efforts to thwart it. Sydney Harbour Bridge, the Golden Gate lacks a suicide barrier . At the time, a made for TV movie, named Silence of the Heart came out. It is also possible she was wearing eyeglasses instead of contact lenses. The Golden Gate net project is like putting a bandaid on an ulcer. Maybe in order to evade authorities who had refused permission to allow the jump legally 18 months earlier, he removed the weighted boots that were intended to keep him upright during the plunge. They are doing a med wash and released me with no meds, and actually said if I come back, I will be admitted long term. Praying for you. The family of a Sydney West, a 19-year-old Pleasanton native and former Foothill High School student, is again asking the public for any information about their daughters whereabouts leading up to her disappearance last month in San Francisco. You can find a life worth living, too, if you set your mind to finding solutions. Precious few people survive such a fall; the water about 200 feet below acts the same as concrete when a person lands on it at high speed. He might also have refused to remove the gun from the home, too. Has he tried cognitive behavior therapy? Required fields are marked *. First published on January 25, 2021 / 11:03 AM. Why Prevent Suicide? According to Find Sydney West, there is a $25,000 reward for information that leads to finding Syd, who is described as 5'10 tall and about 130 pounds with blue eyes and blonde hair. I couldnt pull all the way. This is perhaps the best argument for preventing suicide. My name is Steven. It amazes me that the vast majority of suicides are by men, and virtually all of the articles about it are by women. of the different medications. I used to believe my problems are so intractable that the only way out of my pain was suicide. I know how hard it is. The Golden Gate Bridge crosses the Golden Gate Strait and connects the City of San Francisco and the County of Marin to the north. Keep pushing on. I am sure your mum will be watching over you, so sad that she caused you so much pain, please seek help, you are precious, with love xxx. It gives me a good opportunity to dispel concerns that others may have, too. So it is with anything else, including suicidal thoughts. (findsydneywest.com) West was last seen on the morning of Sept. 30 on the iconic bridge. His father had died by suicide and even though I knew all of this, I couldnt see the forest through the trees. I said, Well, the night we met I got so drunk I passed out on the living room floor. They then examine the demographic characteristics of those who commit suicide from the bridge as well as the fatal attraction of the Golden Gate Bridge. Anyone with information is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek at (925) 705-8328 or Dudek.associates@gmail.com. I am hopeful that similar results will be found after the suicide barrier at the Golden Gate bridge is in place. But what about people like me? Sydney West never returned home, and has not been heard from since. I hope that he is able to get effective help, both psychologically and pharmaceutically. Since Sept. 30, there has been no activity on her phone or credit cards. Yet it gives me great hope that the vast majority of suicide attempt survivors remain just that survivors. Hi Joan. For more information, click here. Bonnie. While living in San Francisco West enjoyed singing and playing the piano for open mic nights around the city. Good luck to you, Joan. After graduating high school in 2019, she decided to take a gap year in Australia. Take a trip somewhere I mean what do you have to lose, on your journey to wherever you may see life worth living make yourself do something. Part of Audacy. I tried to help her, I really did Except I didnt. Dressed in a blue sweatshirt, leggings and Vans slip-on sneakers,. Especially when its an opinion so your both right. Youve been through an enormous amount. For those who are thinking about suicide, I know what happens after youre gone isnt part of the thought process, but believe me, you might end your pain, but the trajectory of pain caused to others is also insurmountable. So when crazy people did crazy things in public places, excited crowds would gather. SF]. Had medical intervention on the second. I wanted to distance myself from it as much as I could so that people would leave me alone. I was determined and had written a detailed letter with instructions for the police and family. I will just speak it: Their lies destroyed me and there is no one on earth greater than you and those you love and want to protect. In 2013, Briggs retired from the California Highway . He says he fully expected to speak with her the next day and became very worried when she didnt return multiple calls from him. I understand completely. By accepting all cookies, you agree to our use of cookies to deliver and maintain our services and site, improve the quality of Reddit, personalize Reddit content and advertising, and measure the effectiveness of advertising. The San Francisco Police Department's tip line can be reached at 415-575-4444. PLEASANTON, Calif. (KRON) Nearly a year has gone by since a Bay Area college student, Sydney West, vanished in San Francisco. Aside from seeing a therapist, I didnt find anything out there to help. I was driving toward the Hoover Dam bypass bridge from Memphis over 4 years ago to jump off. Michael Horan at 415-553-1028 or the family's private investigator at 925-705-8328. 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